Return

 The goal of my training today was to get back in shape two weeks ago, but I had to be careful not to get injured.

From 10 to 11.30 basic exercises and kihon. I've been trying to fix my posture for a long time. I'm leaning forward a little. They say that you achieve success when your posture is good - you are upright, and this happens quite naturally. I know that it doesn't work for me - I have to make an effort both to keep my back straight and to think again and again to tighten my stomach.

    After 12.30 it's Jigeiko's turn. My rules for judge are as follows:

• do not think,
• attack with full force,
• don't judge
• use all the energy of your spirit,
• be relaxed

    It is true that these are not easy to follow rules. But I don't like easy rules either. I was lucky enough to make a few jigs. It was instructive and interesting. My shape from before will not come back easily. So the goal for the next workout is clear to me.

Without Spirit

 I haven't trained in two weeks. I just don't feel like training. No ... it's not that simple. It seems to me that all that I believed in until a moment ago, strong smoke disappeared. Everything is the same. People are the same. The hall is the same. The techniques are the same. Evil is like a dark cloud falling low in the branches of trees. It covers the grass, it covers the bushes ..... I think ... where am I. Nothing's right. The normal is not normal. The right thing is not right. Words are words, and there is nothing in them. They resound empty. And I understood it at that moment. It's easy to catch a tire. It's too lazy to imitate me. It's easy to show pure play. Pure game? You can be smart and have a good vocabulary. Maybe I'm getting wiser. I may have learned something from kendo all these years. But my heart is empty ...

        Kendo doesn't change if you don't want to. Please ... ippon ... I'm training again. Do you want to know what I think? Come out against me and you will see it in my eyes.